6 Observe the commands of the LORD your God, walking in his ways and revering him. 7 For the LORD your God is bringing you into a good land—a land with streams and pools of water, with springs flowing in the valleys and hills; 8 a land with wheat and barley, vines and fig trees, pomegranates, olive oil and honey; 9 a land where bread will not be scarce and you will lack nothing; a land where the rocks are iron and you can dig copper out of the hills.

 10 When you have eaten and are satisfied, praise the LORD your God for the good land he has given you. 11 Be careful that you do not forget the LORD your God, failing to observe his commands, his laws and his decrees that I am giving you this day. 12 Otherwise, when you eat and are satisfied, when you build fine houses and settle down, 13 and when your herds and flocks grow large and your silver and gold increase and all you have is multiplied, 14 then your heart will become proud and you will forget the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. 15 He led you through the vast and dreadful desert, that thirsty and waterless land, with its venomous snakes and scorpions. He brought you water out of hard rock. 16 He gave you manna to eat in the desert, something your fathers had never known, to humble and to test you so that in the end it might go well with you. 17 You may say to yourself, "My power and the strength of my hands have produced this wealth for me." 18 But remember the LORD your God, for it is he who gives you the ability to produce wealth, and so confirms his covenant, which he swore to your forefathers, as it is today.

 19 If you ever forget the LORD your God and follow other gods and worship and bow down to them, I testify against you today that you will surely be destroyed. 20 Like the nations the LORD destroyed before you, so you will be destroyed for not obeying the LORD your God.

The main purpose i shared it here is because i am really tired about life at one point and i kinda sick of my life as well as my faith was not that strong. But this little passage here has ever speaks to me again.The one that i bold it is the Word of the Lord has speaks to me. Indeed, we as Christians must be very careful and follow every command that God has given to us today so that we may enter in His kingdom. As in verse 2 says, remember how the Lord led us all the way in the desert for 40 days. Here i was reminded about all this years , how God has led me through and through the days of my troubles, my tiredness, my sorrows, my hurts and pains, how He healed me and how He has helped me, carrying me through it all. Thank You Lord. I was once again reminded to always count on His blessings and not on what had happen. It is when we count on His blessings, it will  surely overrides the hurts and the pains we go through in our daily life. All of us does not live on bread alone but on every Word  that comes form the mouth of the Lord. how true is that? We all does not just live here by word of man nor by the food but the Living Water, Living bread and the Living Word. It is by his words we live and by His words and commands we are changed and it is by practising what He said, the world of darkness will know that we are His disciples. Shine for Him my fellow brothers and sisters. The things that is going through us might seems to be so hard to overcome but hang on there, God is with you and because He loves us , He discipline us as how a man disciplines his son. So therefore, my fellow disciples of God observe the commands and walk in His ways and do not ever ever forget the Lord. For  if you did He will destroy you.

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.-Psalm 19:14

Hey there peeps, this psalm here is where i ponder a lot as i click on a website. Many times in life we all do and does sins. Each day without failing we do things that somehow it sins. DO not tell me I did not. I do I admit. Each of us does. Each day no matter how holy we are, we do sin. Each day before I end my day, I often ask god to forgive me for all my wrongs. Forgive me for all the things that I had done that is not favourable to His eyes.

See, I guess all of us here take things for granted each day. We know that Jesus has die and rose again and yes praise the Lord for that because we know all our sins and all our shame has been forgiven. Thank God for this grace and this salvation. But does it means that we can continue to be sinful and sins among people around us? Some may say, we can confess and god will forgive. Yes, He does. But is this all about it? Does it make sense? So what different are we as Christians, as a believer of Christ? We all are nothing but the darkness. In Matthew 5:13-14 it says, we are the Light and the Salt of the earth. How on earth can we lead the darkness? We do not even have the Light though we did. We did not even practice it.

The bible also tells us that, we are a new creation, the old has gone, the new has come- 2 Corinthians 5:17. If we continue to sins against others and ourselves, does it brings any difference? I don’t see any. See, we are all a different person. The old has gone. It is deleted. We are gonna start our life again. The book of life once we had long time is a past. Now we are starting off with a new book, a new chapter.  We start from chapter 1. A book where our life will be different from the past. We are a new creation!

In Galatians 3:26-27, you are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ. Look we are all God’s children. I believe many of us know of a word that sounds a lil like this: How the children react is depends on how the parents.  We are all the same. We were once new born babies. We were train and taught by our parents. How we are today is influenced by our parents. Likewise here, we are God’s children. By Him we call Abba Father. Since we are all his children, how we react is actually reflects on Him. People will see us, the way we act, the way we show love, the way we care and our inner personalities. Trust me. Many people are watching us. And by watching us, they will know whether we are the Disciples of Christ. It is by observation they will judge us.  Yes the bible says, do not judge or you too will be judge.-Matthew 7:1. I did not ask us to judge, but if you do notice and do observe the world. The world is actually watching us. We all make mistakes we are human not robot. We are not programme to be perfect and we will never be perfect because we are not. That’s why we need God.  What makes us stray away? One of them is temptations. Jesus was once tempted 3 times by Satan. But what happen? Did Jesus fall into the trap? No. He did not.-Matthew 4:1-11.  The main reason Jesus did not fall into the Satan’s trap is because Jesus know the word in His heart. Do we know the word in our heart? Do we spend time with God and remember scriptures? In 1 Corinthians10:13, no temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. There is no temptation that God cannot bear. It is whether we wanna give in or not.

Again, this is my prayer, may the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.-Psalm 19:14.

I challenge all of you here to walk in the Light, to read His word, to meditate upon the Word and understand it.  I also challenge all of us here; include me to obey His word daily and not just for a day or two. Honour Him and He will honour you.

Amazing grace

How sweet the sound

That saves a wretch like me

I once was lost but now I found

Was blind but now I see

Indeed how amazing is His grace? Today I would like all of us to reflect our life. What have we done so far? Throughout your time on earth from the day you have accepted Jesus in your heart. Take a few minute ponder upon your life. How have you grown? What Jesus had taught you through all your weariness and circumstances in life?

For those who are back slided how did Jesus bring you back? In what way God’s grace carried you through?

*ponder**

Well, how was it? It’s that good or bad? Of course in life we go through thorns. I do. I learn a lot for the past few months of my life. See, to learn something we need to have patience. Patience is not my thing. It’s never mine. I once was a girl who has very hot –tempered thanks to me gens. My dad is a hot-tempered man. He was also the number one fierce person in my family. I come the second. *lol* I do not know when exactly the day I realize I have changed. The one thing that happens in my life that makes me see the different is where once my parents as usual, parents being parents just love to nag even tho it is not my fault. Usually at this scenario I will get angry, why? Reason is because I have my rights to say that it is not my fault. As for me, everyone has their own reason and rights in doing something. They cannot simply assume things and scold me for no reason. If it is my fault, then I am okay with it. Scold me and I will learn. One thing, why must they scold and shout when I do something wrong? Can’t they just like tell me in a nice way? See, as children the more the parents shout at them, the anger grows and we intend to do even more. Agree with me??? As for parents I know scolding means love. Sometimes, this is not the way; we children would want to hear. We do not see this as love. We see this as hatred. All right, back to the topic, as I said I change a lil in my tempered. As I said earlier, once my parents scold me for no reason, something weird happen. I did not say any word nor did I stand for my rights. All I do was just listen and kept silent. Honestly. It is not me. It’s never me. And guess what? I feel much better even I get the scolding but it is not my fault. I did not cried as before when I shouted back and stand for my rights. The only reason I say I did not cried as before cause at times I do cry when my parents scold me. It is emotions. =] See, how amazing is God’s grace.

Another thing is God teaches me to not to make a conclusion based on one person or an event that had happen. God also show me that every one of us is different in a way. God shows me that every person’s heart have different desires and different priorities in life. This remind me about Romans 12:4-8 just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.  See what I mean? We are all different and that’s why we need one another. The body of Christ here is like teamwork. We can’t do things out if we did not do it with teamwork. Some will be the hand, some will be the leg and other will be the eyes, mouth and etc. This is how it’s works. I truly thank God for teaching me all these into a practical. Some of us may ask why God is giving us problems in life so that we can learn what the Word says. Well, let me tell you this if we do not experience it we will never know the true meaning. Look, it is just like before we actually work we all do have practical training right? What is the purpose so that we know exactly what we learn before and practise it in real life? We all do know about the theory and the calculations of our future work. So why need to have practical training? Is the same concept here.

I know I have been typing a lot here but please bear with me okie. Next, I learn that we human many times love to just please people around us. Wait I would not use the word love to pleas people, I would say in life we often please people around us so that we will be loved by them. Agree with my statement? Do not say, well not really. Not really means to a certain extend it is true. I do. To some of us here might just do things for themselves only and did not care about what other feel.  Doing for yourself what do you gain? Nothing actually. See in Colossians 3:23, whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men. We indeed should do things for God and not for men! Do things that will glorify His name! Amen? How bout being selfish? Well God’s says, do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you- Romans 12:3

 So what have God teaches you so far?

At times i wonder it is the things that i have done that i am so stuck with things that happen to me. Yes, i know it is part and parcel of life that we all do face struggles in life. In others words we all do face challenges in life. After all it is through problems in life we learn something and this is how we grow. To a certain extend i am really tired. Tired of things in life. Most of the time i feel i am just so lost. Lost in this freaking world. I no longer know who am i anymore. I no longer understand people around me. I no longer know the world.*taken from my first blog*

My Faith is not been strengthen. At times my Faith is there but at times it just unsure. Sometimes i also do not know whether do i have Faith. What is Faith to me? Faith is simply believing something which you cannot see. Yes i do believe in God. I do believe in His promises. I do. But, i do doubt. I doubt a lot lately. I did not tell anyone about it is because i do not find the need. After all is between me and God.

To those who know me, perhaps you all will say can't be Charis. You have a great Faith in God. Yea i do , but that was last time not now. My level of Faith now is unstable. I feel lost. I feel that i am far from God. Perhaps is the freaking world that is making me feel like this.If you say did i do my devotion and do i pray yes i do. Everyday i pray and i read His word every day. But, i just feel that my walk with Him is far. 

Let's us not live in a denial world. We all do thing as what the world thinks. We do. I do. We are all living in this freaking dark world and we do thinks like them. We are the Light of the world but at times we do thinks like the darkness of the world. Kinda sad aren't it? Sometimes it is just hard , hard to think in a way where we think differently from the world. Many times, i think in a way where it is different from the world , and what do i get? I get peace of my mind. I feel much happier as i view things in a positive way in a way where i know no matter what i will be all right because God is with me. I do believe He is. But, yes there is a but, but each time i think in this way, there are just some people who will give me a look, give me a different point of view and yes it does makes sense. Here it goes, battle among myself, arguing among myself. Gosh i really hate this feeling man!*taken from my 1st blog as well*

At times, in my mind, the words of cursing is there and i just hate it! I hate it very much. I prayed for forgiveness. Yes i did not use it nor say it but i do think about it at times and this kills me cause i do not think bout it last time. I was not like this. To make things worst, i found out that, people around me whom i thought they will never curse actually curse. I feel so weird. I feel bad. I feel speechless. 

I really don't understand, all this while they are just wearing a mask. Talking about wearing a mask. I guess i have been wearing mask to some people around me. Why? The main reason is i do not want them to ask me tonnes of questions and giving me a long lecture. It is not i do not know i do know. Just i can' take it. I can't bear it. I no longer bear it. Well after all who knows? Only me and God.

See, i do surrender to God. I guess each time i surrender i do take a part of it back to myself. I know it is bad. I know it is not good but it happens. I beleive man of you here have experience it before. I do long time ago. Guess i have to learn to surrender 100% to God once again. Life is all about learning.

Sometimes i do hope, i wish i can just get myself out of the world. Yea i know it is impossible. Because i am living in this world.  I might so down now but i am not Emo! Not emo! Lately, i realize that a lot of people asking me this question,"Charis are you okay?". I do not know how to answer them. Why? Firstly, some of them is not a Chrisitans and i can't be telling them about my walk with God. Yes some of them are Christians but, i just feel hessitate to tell. Secondly, i just do ont want to hear any lecture.

The reason i am telling all of you here is because i guess i should not keep in to myself any longer. It kills me. I do not want to wear a mask. I do not want to be a hyprocritc.

Any words for me my fellow brothers and sisters?

James 5:9-10 :-

Don’t grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The judge is standing at the door. Brothers, as an example of patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord.

As I look through my church bulletin, this little corner spoke to me. It says any twit can criticise, condemn and complain and most fools do.

I paused for a moment and I ponder. I reflect my life. Many a times we all do grumble against our beloved church members or in other words our fellow brother and sisters in Christ. For instance, in our own ministries, we do not work alone most of the time. We do have a few members with us in the same team. It is all about teamwork. Teamwork helps to reduce the burden of the task. Sad to say, most of the time it just do not work in that way. Why? Because each of us have different opinion in different things and none of us want to give in. All of us stand firm in our own opinion. I do that at times. It is not wrong to stand on your own opinion. It is good. I guess we forgot that we are doing it for God. For His glory not for our own glory.

Instead of grumbling about our won brothers and sisters, we should be patience and pray about it. Look, the bible warns us earlier it says; if we grumble against each other we will be judged. Do you want to be judged? Do not say well, I did nothing wrong so who cares? Why should I be afraid?  I guess you have forgotten that we are all sinners. We do make mistakes in life and that’s why we need God, we need Jesus in our life. That is why god sent Jesus for us, to die for all our sins and shames. What the bible tells us to do? The bible asks us to set an example of patience in the face of suffering. We need to ne patience. Again I repeat we need to be patience.

Besides than ministries, we human we often judge people and we start to gossip indirectly. I guess it is time for us to realize that who are we to judge? We are no one to judge others. If you want to judge others, first judge yourself first. None of us here are perfect. So why are you complaining or telling our brothers and sisters about how the other brothers and sisters behaviour? If we do that, I can tell you Jesus will have tons of things to complain about all of us here. How many times did we not obey Him? How many times did we do things based on our own opinion and our own decision? In other words we do things based on our own will and not His. But God is still faithful. In the times of troubles half way through our journey He is there for us, carrying us and helping us to solve it. He did not even complain. Who are we to complain?

My dear brothers and sisters, are we complaining and criticising our own brothers and sisters? Ask God to forgive us.